Yukio slid open
the door to Urufu's room, or rather the room he shared with another
two patients.
One look inside
told him one of those patients had been discharged. The bed was
neatly made and still untouched for the day. Urufu sat in his bed by
the window and looked out. He barely turned to wave Yukio welcome
before he returned to his stare outside.
The third bed was
currently unoccupied, it's owner away for rehab or something.
Next week they
promised, Yukio thought.
You look like a bird in a
cage here.
“Urufu, I have
the midterm results,” Yukio said and zipped open his bag.
“What's the
fallout?” Urufu wondered, but he still didn't look inside the room.
Yukio took the
long way, grabbed a chair and positioned himself by the window. He
quickly produced Urufu's five exams.
“You won't end
up on the wall, that's or certain.”
“Top fifty? No,
no I guess not.”
Yukio smirked. It
wasn't like he was anywhere close to placing among the top fifty
himself. There were close to 350 freshmen, so if he made it into the
top hundred and fifty he'd be happy. As it was he scored number 160
overall.
Urufu leafed
through the papers. “Fuck! Oh well, could have been worse.”
“How bad?”
Yukio asked.
“Three make-up
exams. Should have been two, but our beloved basket case keeps
screwing me over.”
“English
again?” Yukio asked already knowing the answer.
“Yeah, the
retard doesn't know the language in the first place, and it shows in
his grading.”
Yukio avoided
meeting Urufu's eyes and stared at a tray with the leftovers from a
nondescript hospital meal. Stop
being so damn cocky! You're deliberately misinterpreting his tests
and receive poor grades.
But truth be told Yukio did
suspect that Urufu's English was superior by far compared to their
teacher's.
“You look
down,” Yukio said to change the subject.
“Don't worry.
Just feeling restless. How did the rest of the gang do?”
“Kyoko scored
number 130. She's pretty unhappy about it.”
Urufu grimaced
before saying anything. “Soz, but if she ever makes it into the top
third that's her cap I'm afraid.”
“Like you've
been a teacher!” Yukio said and barely managed to keep his voice
down.
“I have, and
you know it. Learning assessment was part of my job. Top third in
this school if she makes an effort. Push her to make it into double
digits.”
Yukio didn't
respond. Urufu could be a condescending arsehole, but he was very
seldom wrong.
“The others?”
Urufu wanted to know.
“Don't know
about Kuri, but you can ask her yourself. I think she bombed pretty
badly.”
With a sigh Urufu
slowly started to laugh. “Yeah, I could see that coming. OK I'll
ask her when she comes here next time. The twins?”
“Ryu just made
into the list. Number 48.”
“Noriko?”
“Make a guess.”
“Hmm, she's
been worried lately. Should cost her. She made fifth place and is
sulking about it?”
Yukio stared at
his friend. “Are you some kind of mind reader?”
There was a short
laugh but no answer. If Yukio was honest with himself he wasn't all
that surprised Noriko had dropped two positions given all that had
happened during October.
He looked out the
window, over the small park greeting visitors to the hospital and
across a jagged landscape of low-rise buildings in their dirty,
yellowish grey. Behind him Urufu stayed strangely silent and Yukio
turned and looked at his friend.
For the first
time he noticed that Urufu's eyes were tinged with red.
Have you been
crying? “What's wrong?”
This time it was
Urufu who didn't meet his eyes. Instead he looked through the windows
at a grey autumn sky. There was something empty in that stare, a
desolation Yukio knew from earlier.
“Man, are you
back home again?”
Urufu drew a deep
breath. “Yes, but it's only a memory now. I don't think I'll ever
be able to go back.”
Did you give
up? When was the impossibility of anything a reason for you to give
up? “What do you mean?”
“You know,”
Urufu began with a voice that was barely more than a whisper, “we've
met a couple of arrivals, but I've never even heard a story about
anyone going back.”
“Huh?”
“I've been
thinking a lot. There should at least be some kind of unconfirmed
rumour. Some kind of wishful magic thinking, but there's nothing.”
Yukio wiped his
mouth with his hand. He didn't share Urufu's information network, and
to be honest he didn't put all that much thought into Urufu's old
world. For him Urufu was his best friend, an adult caught in his
teenager body but no matter what Yukio truly saw Tokyo as Urufu's
home.
“What's wrong,”
Yukio asked again.
“I miss them.”
“Sure, you've
said that lots of times before.”
“You don't
understand. I can't even visit her grave. My little girl, she's gone
for good and I can't even honour her memory!”
In the
self-deprecating way that was Urufu's he sniffled and cried like a
girl. For some reason it never looked like a weakness to Yukio, not
once even including that first time a year ago when Urufu cried his
heart out longing for his lost wife. This time, however, it looked
like a deeper crisis.
“Urufu, man,
what's wrong.”
“She's gone,
they're all gone!”
From the door the
sound of a sudden gasp got Yukio's attention and he looked up from
Urufu's face. In the door opening he saw how Kuri slapped her hands
to her face with a stricken look before she turned and ran away.