“I can’t do
that. She’s hurting and I want to be here now.”
Noriko listened
to the silence following those words. Kyoko spoke on the phone, with
Yukio most likely.
“No! Look
there’s a guard in a car outside, and I don’t care that you don’t
trust Kuri-chan.”
What? Trust
Kuri?
“Yes. Noriko’s
hurt and you just have to wait, OK!” A hard, rapping sound told
Noriko Kyoko had slapped the phone to the table a little harder than
was good for it. “Damn he can be so stubborn sometimes.”
Kyoko came back
from her call and clasped Noriko’s hands in her own. As if that had
been a signal, Kuri rose and punched a call of her own.
“Are you sure
you don’t want to talk it over with Nao-kun?” Kyoko wondered for
the umpteenth time.
Noriko shook her
head. Talking with Nao was the last she wanted to do right now. First
she had to wrap her head around his message. Slept with a girl?
That can’t mean… can it? But there really was only one way to
interpret the message. But maybe I read it wrong.
She needed her
phone to know for sure, but she had lost it somewhere.
“I don’t
care. Cancel the shoot.”
Noriko felt Kyoko
flinch at those words. Going back on a promise to work was alien to
her. Noriko could understand why one might have to, but on a
fundamental level she agreed with Kyoko on this.
“No. You stupid
little fuck. Mess with me and I’ll trash the next shoot, so just
cancel this one and shut the hell up!”
This time both
Noriko and Kyoko flinched.
“Yes, I can sit
this one out. For two years and start working in Europe instead if I
have to. Wrap your tiny brain around that you shit-head!”
Kuri didn’t
slam her phone to the table, but it disappeared into a pocket in her
baggy clothes. She’d changed into them a little earlier when her
bodyguard arrived at Noriko’s home for the second time, this one
with two bikes and a bag of clothes.
The first he’d
joined them in the car driven by the escort assigned to Kyoko and
Yukio. The other half of that escort waited at school for Yukio to
finish. Three bodyguards, plus the one Vogue sometimes added when the
magazine deemed it too dangerous for Kuri to be out with only one
guard.
Who was that?”
Noriko asked. Anything was better than talking about Nao.
“My boss.”
Noriko flinched
again. Talking with someone superior in that way was alien to her.
“Look, Noriko,
he made me go through what you’re feeling now, and I had to do it
to myself.”
I suspected as
much.
“Besides, he’s
powerless if I quit modelling.” Noriko felt Kuri’s hands
caressing her head. Long, slender fingers, entirely different than
her own small ones. “He already cost me my love. I’ll be damned
if I’ll let him have my friends as well.”
Noriko looked up
and met Kuri’s eyes. “Your still not supposed to behave like that
in Japan.”
“I’m not
Japanese. I’ll never be. Given the way they treat women here I
don’t want to.” The last came out like a whiplash. “Urufu is
tedious with his comparing with Sweden all the time, but don’t
believe for one second that I don’t agree with him!”
Kuri’s sudden
wrath almost had Noriko want to talk about Nao again. Almost. I
forgot she’s hurting as well. I didn’t know it could hurt this
way. Noriko fought down her tears. She wasn’t the emotional
kind anyway, and she really didn’t want to burden her friends with
how empty she felt after Nao’s message, or how her self-image was
one of a discarded dishcloth. She didn’t want them to see…
Two pairs of arms
wrapped her in a hug, and Noriko broke down again, just like she had
done over and over the last hours.
He slept with
a girl?
Then what she
really wondered, and what really hurt struck her. He
slept with a girl who wasn’t me? Thinking that was oddly
disturbing. Not once had she tried, or even wanted, to get into bed
with Nao, but now, now after that message, Noriko felt betrayed
because Nao hadn’t tried to seduce her first.
I’m not
rational. But then again, rational didn’t hurt this way.
Rational wasn’t raw emotions. Rational wasn’t love.
“What the
hell?”
Kuri’s voice
broke Noriko’s chain of thought, and she felt Kuri release her
embrace and fish up her phone to get yet another incoming call.
“Ulf, why is he
calling me?”
Despite the pain
in her chest Noriko heard how Kuri’s voice almost broke.
“Christina
here, you want something?”
A few moments of
silence followed.
“Noriko, it’s
for you.”
For me?
Noriko took the phone. “Yes?”
“It’s me,
Ulf,” Urufu said. “I have your phone. Do you want me to hand it
to your brother, or should I hold on to it until we meet next?”
Would be
easiest to have Ryu handle it. But Noriko knew her brother would
rummage through the contents of her phone if he got his hands on it.
“Would you keep it for me?”
“Will do. I’ll
have if fixed as well.”
Fixed?
“It’s in
pretty bad shape.”
Bad shape? Oh,
yes, I dropped it on the floor. Then Noriko recalled how
expensive it was to get phones repaired. “Eh, Urufu, don’t mind.
I’ll handle that part myself.”
“No problem,”
came the voice from the other end. “It’s only money. Until a
while ago I had a reason to save them, but it’s no longer there.”
Urufu, you do
know that your voice can be heard in our end as well? Noriko
looked up and met Kuri’s eyes just as she flinched. Yeah, she heard
al-right. You had no reason hurting her.
But that wasn’t
true. That wasn’t true at all. Kuri clinging to her idiot bro was
enough to make Noriko want to hurt her, or at least had been until
Nao’s message.
“Whatever, just
as long as I’m not without a phone for too long,” Noriko said. Moments later she finished the call.
Thank you
Urufu. Making me worry about something different took my mind off
Nao.
Had that been the
purpose? With Urufu you never knew.
“Feeling
better?” Kuri asked. “He knows how to make you angry in a good
way. Up to some tea and sweet pastries?”
“Bribing me?”
Noriko said.
“Sure are,”
Kyoko said from her place behind Noriko. “Bribing is good.”
Noriko smiled for
the first time that afternoon and rose to her feet. “Consider me
bribed.”
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