With their five
guests boarding the water taxi Noriko made a decision. If she wanted
to truly get closer to Urufu she had to be a little more like him
without ever losing sight of herself.
So, how to change
without changing, or rather, how to change while still staying true
to herself.
By now she knew
Urufu somehow accepted, and even condoned, a certain amount of
falsehood, but he utterly despised people who didn’t dare to see
themselves for who they were, which probably was the main reason for
him breaking down at the very end of their first high school year –
he had betrayed himself.
Noriko waited for
the photographers to load their equipment before the followed them.
Normally she’d prefer to sit indoors, but joining him at the aft
wasn’t really something she had to force herself to do.
He made her feel
safe. He made her feel giddy. He made her feel strong, but foremost
of all he made her feel the full joy of youth.
That he wasn’t
hers to have didn’t change any of that, and for that reason alone
she’d give this opportunity her all, now when both he and Kuri
agreed on taking the worst of all paths for themselves. Noriko
suspected she might not get to keep him forever, but whatever time
she managed to squeeze out of him was better than no time at all.
A slap
in the small of her
back brought her out of her daydreaming and Noriko turned to face her
very own idiot bro, who for once wasn’t clinging to
Kuri.
“How’s love?”
she asked and continued on her way to the door leading out to the
planking. An answer wasn’t really needed.
“Just fine, and
you?” it came anyway.
Noriko didn’t
even turn to answer. She just waved with her hand above her shoulder.
Hers was just fine, thank you very much. It was just Urufu who didn’t
cooperate when it came to being reeled in.
Right now she
didn’t want to talk with Ryu. Rika, or even Jun, were her targets. Oh, I forgot the
honorifics! And there it
was. A small detail that would make her a little bit more like Urufu.
Dropping honorifics when they weren’t really needed. A
stupid thing that he was certain to notice even if he never showed
it.
Noriko
felt a smile spread as she entered the sun. While the sea certainly
lowered the temperature a bit it was still oppressively hot, but all
five visitors preferred being outdoors whenever the sun shone, much
like Kuri and Urufu. A Swedish thing, Urufu had said.
For once Kuri
wasn’t, but Noriko saw Urufu’s back where he sat and explained
something to Jenny and Alexanderu in Swedish.
Turning right
Noriko joined Rika and Jun. She looked after Emma and saw her seated
in conversation with Tomasu and Jeniferu. The sight made Noriko smirk
a little. Jeniferu definitely had better luck reeling Tomasu in than
she herself had with Urufu.
“Excuse me,”
Noriko said.
“Yes?” Rika
said.
Jun nodded assent
as well.
“I have a
question about relationships,” Noriko continued.
“Ask him,”
Rika answered. “I’ve never been in one.” The last sentence came
out so harshly that Noriko wondered if the older girl carried some
bad memories as luggage.
Jun gave Rika a
long stare as well but said nothing.
“But maybe you
know how things work over there,” Noriko tried. She had to tread
carefully around Rika. She was all too much like herself, or rather
what Noriko recalled of herself before her friendship with the people
had changed her during their first high school year. Rika
reminded her a little of Hitomi, but without the graceful self
assurance that was a natural
part of the beautiful girl.
“I guess you
mean Sweden?” Jun said when Rika threw Noriko an angry glare.
Noriko
waited for the sound of engines to die down a little as they slowly
left the pier. Behind
Rika’s and Jun’s head the scenery changed to a background of
silvery sky scrapers.
She
nodded. “Yes, Sweden.”
Jun glanced in
the direction where Urufu sat. “Because of him?”
Noriko knew she
was fidgeting, but she disliked feeling so transparent. Rather than
answering she offered Jun a short nod.
Jun tilted his
head in thought. “You know,” he said after a while. “People are
people wherever they are. It’s not like everyone is the same just
because they come from Sweden.”
Noriko understood
that. She stared across
the water while she ransacked her brain for a better question.
“Urufu says the
sky’s clearer there,” she said, remembering something from last
summer. “So there are aspects which are common for a place.” She
could just as well accept that they knew she was crushing on Urufu.
“He even comes from the city where you live, so if I narrow it down
like that?”
“He’s from
Göteborg? Then I guess he’s
rather direct.”
Noriko
grinned. “Yeah, yes he is. Very direct that is.”
“So tell him
how you feel.”
That turned her
grin into a grimace. “Already did. Several times.”
Jun gave her a
thoughtful stare. “If he’s not interested then I don’t see how
it could work out.”
“He doesn’t
avoid me,” Noriko said. “We’ve even been out together, just the
two of us.”
The stare grew
angrier. “He didn’t strike me as a player. I suggest you be
careful around him then.”
“No. No he
isn’t a player.” Noriko thought about what to say. “It’s
complicated, but I know he’d never deliberately hurt me.”
“Are you really
sure about that?” The words were Rika’s, and the edge to them
made Noriko certain Rika had experienced something bad and burned
herself.
“Absolutely
certain.” Because she was. Worst case she’d be hurt, but that
would be her hurting herself because she refused to give up on Urufu.
“Boys always do
as soon as they get a chance.”
“Rika! Have you
ever seen me hurt Jenny?”
Noriko sighed.
The conversation was veering into a strange direction, and she
decided to just listen as they made their way out into the bay.
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