Noriko
felt tired. More tired than she had ever done since she accepted she
had fallen in love with Urufu again.
He
didn’t protest when Yukio suggested he was her boyfriend, but then
he didn’t acknowledge that she was neither. That kind of left her
in limbo, and now she had to push the issue.
They
were seated by a huge wooden table in the house that was indeed
strangely Japanese inside. Very traditionally Japanese at that,
except for a couple of rooms one of which she sat in right now.
Wooden
flooring. She could see the ground beneath her through gaps she
believed were deliberate. The room had to be abysmally cold in
winter.
Most
of the house, the parts that didn’t face the street, could just as
well have been from some peculiar Edo era movie. With utility details
that must have been modern half a century ago skillfully hidden to
preserve the look of an old Japanese rural home.
She
drank the impressions. Even if Urufu hadn’t been born into this
world, this was still part of what had formed him. Every detail
counted now when she was on the verge of finally hauling him in.
The
aunt, the old lady of the house, had given her a searching stare and
then looked at Urufu. Then, during a fleeting moment when they
changed rooms, she grabbed Noriko’s arm.
“If
you can heal him, then I approve. If you can’t, then break up!”
As
demands went that one was unfair, but Noriko didn’t care. If she
merely had to move a mountain or two then that was fine. She had
smiled at his aunt and met her eyes in what was probably a very rude
way.
“I
don’t need your approval, but I need him whole,” she had
answered.
That
bought her a wolfish grin and a huge surprise. She never expected
Urufu to get that part from his mother’s side.
Right
now it was make or break. They were alone. Urufu sat facing her
across the table.
“I
need to know,” Noriko said. “Are we going out?”
If
only she could close her ears. Her eyes were already shut as she
waited for his answer.
“Please,
Noriko! Look at me if you want me to answer that question.”
She
opened her eyes.
“Noriko,
there are a number of constraints...”
“Yes
or no,” she demanded.
He
was silent for a moment. “If you want to, yes, but...”
Yes!
He said yes! “I understand.” He finally said yes! “You
can tell me all about the buts later, but you’re my boyfriend now?
I’m your girlfriend?”
“I
give,” Urufu grinned. “You want this arse of a man you can have
him. Yes, you’re my girlfriend, or I your boyfriend, or whatever
you prefer.”
Then
a sudden second of fear. “But you don’t really love me, or at
least won’t tell me if you do?”
Urufu’s
eyes went soft and his grin thinned into a smile. Two hands reached
out over the table. “That’s the thing. I think I’ve been in
love with you for a while now. I… I just never noticed.”
And
she needed to make once thing absolutely crystal clear. More for
herself than for anyone else. “But you still love Kuri?”
Urufu
nodded. “A part of me always will I’m afraid. Do you still want
me as your boyfriend knowing that?”
And
she needed an edge. A something that was hers alone. “Did you ever
tell her you loved her?”
He
shook his head. “Never so she heard. I was too scared.”
“Do
you love me?”
“Yes,
I love you Noriko.”
It
had to suffice. She had something Kuri never got. She had a
confession. “I love you Urufu.”
He
didn’t spoil the moment by stating the obvious, that he already
knew. He just squeezed the hands she had placed in his.
In
a way she surprised herself. She’d seen Urufu and Kuri, and she’d
seen the awful courtship of Yukio’s and Kyoko’s. Both couples had
been madly in love when their mutual feelings were confirmed. Even
for Kuri’s part. There was no way the tall beauty hadn’t known
all along. For her own part Noriko mostly felt relief. Maybe the
burning feelings would come later. Or maybe they had already passed.
After all this was the third time she fell in love with him.
But
she did feel love. A deep and profound love. So she squeezed back.
It
was a perfect moment of shared silence for them. Too perfect.
“You
can come out now,” Noriko said.
Two,
no three faces popped around the door post. All grinning wildly. Then
Kyoko dashed to her side.
“I’m
happy for you!” There was a moment’s hesitation. “For you as
well,” she added to Urufu, and Noriko knew her friend hadn’t
forgiven him yet. At that moment Noriko understood how she in ways
was older than her friends. Kuri and Urufu excepted obviously. And
she also understood something equally important. Kuri was her friend.
Noriko hadn’t forgiven her for sleeping with Urufu, and maybe she
never would, but Kuri was still a friend.
That
thought was the final one in a long chain of thoughts and fears.
Tears welled up in Noriko’s eyes, but she didn’t try to blink
them away. Instead she let go of Urufu’s hands and rose to hug
Kyoko.
“I’m
happy. I’m so happy,” Noriko mumbled into Kyoko’s shoulder. “If
that had to happen to end what was already broken, then I can live
with it. Maybe they needed an end for us to have a beginning.”
There was no maybe, and it wasn’t the end, but it was an
end, and it definitely was the beginning for her and Urufu.
If
worst came to worst a day would come when she would have to let him
go, but even if such a day eventually came, what was the alternative?
To never have him at all? A life where she never got to share her
love with him? That was no alternative at all.
“Are
you certain about this?” Kyoko whispered.
“Yes,”
Noriko answered. And neither her voice nor her mind held any lies. “I
love him so very much.”
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