That was way
too close.
With a sigh Ulf
finished explaining the last problem and looked at the club members
present. It seemed they hadn't caught up on his mistake. He guessed
that as long as they believed the discrepancy between his real
knowledge and his graded knowledge was a result of moving from Sweden
to Japan he was safe.
They wouldn't
understand anyway. Damn, most people involved in tertiary education
won't for that matter.
Content before
methods, and methods before context, or else the student would
inevitably fail to create new contexts in which to try analysis. That
was why he had forced the walking talking sessions onto the club.
And it had
bloody better not be either the one or the other, Ulf
thought as he walked over to
a third whiteboard.
The Japanese
education system excelled at content and pretty much nothing else.
The Swedish counterpart lay at the opposite end on a scale of
criminal incompetence with a stubborn focus on methods without any
content to apply them on.
Even an idealised
aggregate of the two lacked a systematic application of context, even
though Ulf was bound to think Sweden was slightly better off. Those
who gained understanding despite twelve years of sabotaged learning
tended to have an easier time to apply knowledge and re-evaluate that
very application compared to what he had experienced from cooperation
with Japanese software developers.
“What are you
thinking?” Noriko asked from nowhere, and Ulf became aware he had
been caught up in a world of his own.
“I'm thinking
I'll make you the best of the best,” he answered.
“Best of the
best? In what sense?” Noriko wondered.
Ulf looked at his
short friend who had just taken a break from running through some
essential data on Japanese history. Essential for the upcoming exams
that was. As far as he was concerned it was worse than a monkey see
monkey do approach. There wasn't even any doing involved. The exam
would test their ability to mimic high performance parrots.
“Knowledge,
competence and experience,” Ulf said to give Noriko an answer. He
knew he sounded cryptic, but the kids in the club needed to learn how
to apply methods to their knowledge before anything else. Some of
them already had, and come spring term he'd start giving them case
studies to apply those methods on.
With a bit of
luck the brightest of them would accuse him of being a first class
moron when their second year started.
“You always
have those easy three step solutions to everything,” Noriko said.
They're
models. Verbalised abstractions, but you wouldn't understand. Not
yet at least, but I count on you to call me moron soon.
From the
whiteboard he had left he heard conversations in broken English, a
broken English that was a vast improvement over the atrocity they had
displayed half a year earlier.
I'll give you
your results old goat, Ulf thought. Two percent overall for
the midterms and I think we'll get closer to five after the finals.
Because he had
promised Nakagawa improved test results that day when he was scolded
for the locker room incident over half a year earlier. While a five
percent improvement wasn't much the club members only had half a year
to adapt to his alien views on learning.
I was never
this absorbed in work before. Why is it so important now? Then
Ulf admitted to himself that he was running from his impending doom,
or at least the threat to him and Christina.
I love you,
and but for all the crap happening to us I'd tell you in an instant. Still, she'd give up on her career if he told her, and he just
couldn't do that to her.
Ulf threw a
glance in her direction, filled his mind with her strength and beauty
and turned his attention to Noriko again.
“In order to
grow you need to know what you don't know,” he said.
Before she
answered he looked at Christina again. I'm an idiot. At first I
didn't tell you because of Maria, and now when my feelings finally
are sorted out I still can't tell you.
Noriko looked as
if she was about to voice her answer, but when she followed his eyes
she closed her mouth again. Ulf could see how she looked at
Christina, then at him and then at Christina again. In the end an
expression of determination spread over Noriko's face and she tilted
her head and stared directly into his eyes.
“Really? Are
you two idiots, or what? She should have dragged those words out of
you by now.”
Meeting her eyes
Ulf just shook his head. “Don't tell her that!” he begged.
Noriko screwed
her mouth into a frustrated smirk. “You are two of the most
important people in my life. If you believe I'll allow the both of
you to hurt each other like this then you're sadly mistaken.”
Damn, this is
Noriko here. She'll do whatever she thinks needs doing. Ulf still
remembered her confession when she dragged her brother into the
scene, not to speak about the spectacle at the amusement park shortly
after.
“We need to
talk,” he said and grabbed her hand. “Now!”
Dragging her
through the door only took moments, but it still wasn't fast enough
to prevent someone from shouting.
“Wrong girl,
man!” the voice called out, but he was already outside and
continued through the main entrance to make certain they were
outdoors before he said anything more.
Outside
lamplights blinked miserably in a rain that never seemed to stop
these days. It was just as bad as an especially awful December week
in the Gothenburg he remembered from his former life. For a moment
Ulf regretted that he hadn't brought an umbrella, but now it was too
late for details like that.
I have to make
her understand how adults think. And what great adults we are
Christina. What an awful mess!
“Noriko,” he
said and let go of her hand. “You really mustn't tell her. If
Christina requests I say how much I love her I will, and if I do I'll
destroy everything.”
Noriko stared
back at him with incomprehension in her eyes.
“Look, if she
quits her career for me she'll regret it for the rest of her life.” Noriko, I hate telling you how life works. You should stay a child
for a little longer. But Christina was more important to him, and
in the end he decided to force his friend to grow up a little in
advance. “There's no way in hell the two of us will survive that in
the long run. Please, please, please don't tell her!”
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