Leaving Yukio
like that made her unhappy, but after a second serving of Kuri-chan's
dark stare Kyoko didn't dare anything more than returning his wave
before she sneaked inside the locker room.
“Ko-chan, where
did you go yesterday evening?” Kuri-chan's voice was all sugary and
Kyoko didn't believe one iota of it.
Kyoko sat down on
a bench and rested her back against a locker door. Slowly she began
to undress. A new pair of stockings and panties wouldn't hurt, and
that shower looked more and more like a splendid idea now when she
had dragged her tired body here.
“Ko-chan?”
“Shower first,
chit chat later.” Kyoko answered. She was surprised how irritated
her own voice sounded. It did the job though, and with a towel over
her shoulder she went for the closest shower stand. Kuri-chan stayed
silent.
While a morning
shower at school just couldn't compare to home Kyoko still enjoyed
it. Stiff limbs softened and she purred with satisfaction at the
luxury of shampoo in her hair.
One of her
peculiarities she guessed, but she just couldn't help it. Lathing
herself with shampoo had always been a time of bliss for her. Maybe
because she could pretend to be both blind and deaf without her
parents yelling at her for it.
This time it was
Kuri-chan who couldn't yell at her, because that was what was
waiting, even though Kyoko really couldn't understand why she was
going to be yelled at.
Dragging out the
shower turned out to be possible for so long and no more, and
reluctantly Kyoko turned the shower off and towelled herself down.
In the early
morning hours the locker room quickly cooled down despite a cloud of
steam promising lingering heat, and she soon found herself putting on
her clothes scrutinised by Kuri-chan.
“Where were you
last night?” Kuri-chan asked when Kyoko had donned panties and bra
and were zipping up her skirt.
Kyoko waited
until she started buttoning up her blouse before answering.
“Rooftop,” she admitted, “with Yukio.” Because that was the
real question, wasn't it?
Kuri-chan stayed
silent, dug through her school bag and handed over a few plastic
packages. “It's time you started thinking about these,” she said.
“I hope it's not too late.”
Kyoko blushed
red. She felt the rubbery contents through the plastic cover. “We
didn't.” She met Kuri-chan's gaze. “We didn't do it.”
Her friend let
out a long sigh. Of anger or relief Kyoko didn't know. Then she felt
the hands of her friend on her shoulders.
“Be more
careful next time. He's a guy, with the needs of a guy. Sooner or
later you'll share your bodies with each other, or you'll break up.”
Break up? Does
he hate me?
Those blue eyes
met hers. “He's interested, but he'll respect you for some time
more, but eventually those needs will become too great.” Kuri-chan
took a deep breath before she continued. “Maybe your needs will be
stronger than his, but sooner or later you'll have to trust each
other enough. OK?”
Fear still
dominated her thoughts. “Do you think he dislikes me now?” Kyoko
finally asked when she was done pulling her stockings to her knees.
The look she got
in return was one of utter contempt. “Do you really see Ulf's best
friend as that shallow?” For a moment anger flared to life in
Kuri-chan's eyes. “Do you think the man I love would chose his
friends so easily?”
It was a scary
Kuri-chan, one who reminded her of the chasm that had grown between
them since the time they made their differences clear about which
methods were acceptable when it came to handle bullying. It was also
a more guarded Kuri-chan than Kyoko had ever seen before, one who
showed a desperate need to protect her Urufu even from a friend.
“I'm sorry,”
Kyoko said. What else could she say.
“Love hurts,
you know.”
Kyoko looked at
her friend. Did it? The last months ran through her head. Worry,
embarrassment, a little anger and a lot of joy and excitement. “No,
I disagree. I never felt hurt.”
The door opened
and a few students from 6:1 arrived inside. From the looks of them
they were about to make the final preparations before the play.
“Funny you
should say that. I said the same all those years ago.” Kuri-chan
laughed silently to herself and sat straight up leaning her back and
head against the locker door. “Maybe a first love doesn't hurt.”
She wore the face
of an angel with eyes staring at the ceiling and through it.
Kuri-chan was worlds away. Kyoko saw it in her eyes, had seen the
expression of what she once took for homesickness many times before.
“Have you been
in love before? Before Urufu I mean?”
“Mmm,” came
the answer. It wasn't for her benefit. Kyoko guessed her friend spoke
with her own memories right now. “Twice.”
“You said it
didn't hurt, your first love.”
Kuri-chan smiled,
but she never moved her head. Her blue eyes still stared at a
landscape of years gone past. “No, not me. I hurt him though.
Fourteen, I was fourteen.” Then she returned to the here and now
and caught Kyoko's gaze. “An ugly kid with long legs. I think you
remember.”
Ah, yes, she
looked the same the first time I guess. “Why would that hurt
him?”
A grimace played
over Kuri-chan's features. “He wasn't very good looking. Strong and
fast and very good at football, and he adored me, and I him.”
Kyoko waited for
her friend to continue. In the background she heard the other girls
giggle as they tried out clothes for the play.
“He was shorter
than me. And when I grew beautiful and started modelling he got
scared,” Kuri-chan said. “It took years for me to feel confident
with my looks though. Always running to photo shoots, always
cancelling with him whenever an opportunity opened.” She sighed and
stroked her face with both hands. “I had him waiting for me, but I
never waited for him. In the end I never gave him a chance to follow
me. I hurt him.”
“How?” Kyoko
asked when she understood that Kuri-chan was finished.
“I always
believed he broke up with me, but in reality I forced him to. I
enjoyed being surrounded by beautiful boys too much, and I always
thought he'd be there for me anyway.” Her hands slid down from her
hair to cover her face. “Damn, that's embarrassing to realise so
many years later. And I never apologised to him.”
Kyoko didn't
understand those thoughts. Yukio was Yukio through and through. She'd
wait for him and she'd ask him to wait for her. Wherein lay the
difficulty in that?
“You'll
understand one day,” Kuri-chan said as if she had read her
thoughts. “Anyway, I'll give you this one. A first love doesn't
have to hurt.”
That piqued her
interest. “But the second one?”
Kuri-chan grinned
and laughed. “Oh that hurt for sure. I was twenty. He cheated on me
on a grand scale.” She smiled at Kyoko who only saw sparkling joy
in those eyes. “Five on the side, or more likely all six of us
girls were his playthings. I've never felt so humiliated in my life.”
She had heard
that story before. Never so heartfelt though. “And you never fell
in love after that?”
A bubbling
laughter was the first answer. “No, not until I met Ulf. I promised
myself never to fall in love again, but he made me break that
promise.” Once again those eyes strayed elsewhere, but this time
they weren't looking into another world.
It was time to
change the topic. “Why did you want me here?”
The question had
Kuri-chan return to reality. “To give you this.” She dug into her
school bag and offered Kyoko a small metal case. “It's a portable
make-up set.”
Kyoko turned the
box over and opened it. “Yes?”
“You can pull
that lever.”
She obeyed and
stared as the bottom came away. “Yes?” she asked again.
“You have
parents. Parent's never respect the privacy of a teenager in love.
That's a false bottom with enough space to hide two of those.”
It took a while
for Kyoko to grasp what Kuri-chan meant, but when she did she blushed
from her collarbones all the way to her hair.
“This isn't a
suggestion. In this case you'll do exactly as told. Get it?”
Kuri-chan took both her hands in her. “Ulf's having this talk with
Yukio as well. Don't you even dare to take stupid risks!”
“It's not like
we're going to do it any time soon,” Kyoko protested.
Kuri-chan
grinned, took the one Kyoko held in her palm and placed another in
the adorned metal case before she put the make-up back. “It's not
like they go bad in a few days,” she said and pulled Kyoko to her
feet.